I just started watching porn since 2012 summer and until now i have done many things to stop. Until december 2014 all the longest No PMO Streaks were like 3-4 days maybe, and then i discovered NoFap. I noticed a really big difference when i discovered this forum, since the beginning of this year i've done like 1-2 week streaks, and now i've done a 1 month streak, the best streak i have ever done. I thought this was finally the end, because it was kinda "easy" to make through this month, i hardly had any thoughts about PMO, but on the 4th week, i had 2 wet dreams, and i don't know what happened really, but my mind started changing a bit and i started remembering all those things, and after a month, i relapsed. It was very strange, since i didn't even think about it and i don't feel that bad as i used to feel whenever i broke one or two week streaks. I just learned that I should never think that "this is it, its finally ending, i'm getting cured", because it can happen any day... So i have to be prepared for any thoughts which can come anytime. Also, i can't feel down for wet dreams and start changing my mind as I did, because it is not a relapse at all, right? I wish that those wet dreams never came... maybe all of this would be different, but it's pointless, it is done indeed. I hope i can recover from this relapse just like i did on august 18th. I made it to 1 month until september 19th and i think i should feel happy for that, but what i really want, is to stop this thing for once. I'm sick of this, and i have witness many relapses... I hope any of you guys who are fighting this thing aswell can reach all of your goals. And, Thank you NoFap members, without you, all of this would be really worse. But i'm sure i can make it.
