Relapse and Panic Attacks

Do you guys get Panic Attacks a few hours or days or weeks after your relapse?
I feel like after my relapse, I mentally feel so weak. I feel like I am not able to fight people, I feel like I am verbally closed off. Like when people say stuff to me, I cant even respond. But I notice maybe when I am on a good streak, I can talk back. I tend to have more energy. I am happier. Since the relapse, I am more jumpy, and stupid thing set me off. I also feel super tired like all the time. I have a deep sense of hopelessness, and I don't feel like doing anything. I feel like everything is just a repetition of yesterday. In other words, I think these relapses, indirectly, and slowly make me depressed. I am literally listing the symptoms of depression. Last night I even thought of ways to kill myself. I am going to have to keep a daily journal from now on. Just to be able to track myself before a relapse, vs after a relapse.