Relapse dooming please help

I am really struggling today. had a pretty stressful past couple of days and today has been awful. im on day 25 today. the past 2 and a half weeks i would say have been pretty easy. although im not really seeing any benefits but i am trying so hard to stick it out to at least 30 days and then push for 60. up until today my visual images of P havent really been in my mind at all which i was surprised about. but say yesterday and today they have been cropping up every few minutes. i keep rewatching the Your brain on....talk and reminding myself why i want to stop in the first place. because its ruining my person to person relationships. But as i became addicted to this awful demon was subconsciously a coping mechanism to dealing with grief as a teen. it then slowly wormed its way into every area of my life....trying to stop smoking.....PMO, annoyed at a friend...PMO. Feeling ill or sad....PMO and any other emotion provoking situation.

I know it will take a while to rewire my old patterns of thinking and escapism but i was just after a little company and advice from fellow sufferers. I have completely reshaped my lifestyle, socialise more, excercise more, cook good foods, i have lots of hobbies so i am shifting the focus im not just staring at my computer screen all day making the whole thing ten times more difficult. I want this more than ever believe me. just after a bit of support.

Thanks guys

 

Stick with it. I'm over 60 days and I'm still dealing with urges, I just keep going because I know of the benifits that will come and those that I am already noticing. You just listed a bunch of things that have changed you're life for the better since quitting PMO. You can't give up on all of that for a few minutes of satifaction. Just know that you are a better person now for not doing PMO and you should be proud of how many days you have already abstained.

Don't give in to those urges and you will thank yourself tomorrow for not acting on them.

Good luck!

 

thank you my friend. yes i suppose i was expecting my social anxiety to magically disappear which is what most of my attention has been on.. i was a severe recluse pretty much. ive been trying NoFap believe it or not for over 3 years and up until about February of this year i never did longer than a week. i was a habitual 2 to 3 a day sometimes more M'er for like 17 years. since then though i have cycled over 1400 miles, got through 3 jobs to work up to the job ive always wanted. become pretty great at guitar. wrote 1 book.i was even in the gym in front of other people the past 3 days which believe me is a huge milestone for me. Gyms intimidate me as do confident people. i do still struggle with other things but its a waiting game isnt it. and i think we all get a little impatient times. i think thats what i do most times, when stress levels get right up or some kind of emotional incident occurs i convince myself NoFap isnt having any benefit then relapse....then spend months depressed and dwelling on it. its just a struggle really when you have other issues to try overcome. i do try not to complain though and focus on the good things. but sometimes having a good network of people is the key.. i mean ill be honest none of my friends and family know about my severe porn addiction so its hard to feel motivated sometimes.

thanks for the reply