Couples of hours ago, I relapsed. It was like a dream, so unrealistic but it did happen. And I wasted big money on it, so I am depressed now, I don't know how to deal with it, I was always poor, once I get some money, I wasted on these stuff and get nothing, I work so hard on these money but I just cannot control myself when the desire comes to me, maybe the word perserverence don't belong to me, and the feeling I got before was not true, I want some advices...
Sorry this happened to you. But, you know, it has happened to so many of us, including those who have already left this forum after successfully beating their addictions. We all know how utterly horrible it feels after a relapse. Just get up and dust yourself off. And consider how to change. For example, if you are pretty poor, consider spending that money immediately on something of value (like groceries, rent, etc) so that you can’t possibly use it to relapse. Maybe use some of it on a gym membership, since exercise will itself decrease the strength of your addiction. There are many options. Just don’t give up.
