Relapsed and lied

Today is a tough day. Back in August I came clean to my GF about struggling with PMO and it hurt very much. After that happened I took the necessary steps to get healthier and overcome PMO. I was checking this forum daily learning from others experiences and gaining a lot of support. I also took up meeting with a therapist and opened up to my friends and family about my struggles.

In October I relapsed after a fight we had, and felt super terrible and ashamed. And since then have relapsed 5- 6 times for M in about a 3 month span. My girlfriend would always ask me if I did it again and out of shame and fear of the consequences I would tell her No. she asked me again last night and I came clean again. She was very upset, hurt and emotionally distraught. More upset that I lied to her and kept it for so long.

Today she also informed me that we were lo longer together. So here I am again trying to take the necessary steps to become healthy and win this. I underestimated this and here I am back at square 1. I will be better and beat this and hopefully praying that her and I can reconcile.

 

I appreciate it all the prayers welcomed. And I know we will all defeat this