After 223 days I had a week of exposure to beautiful women while on holidays. When I got home in my own privacy and knew it was possible to masturbate I had intense urges for a whole night which I survived and had a cold shower in the process. The next day I was reading a book on Taoism which explained how to do the Big Draw in order to prepare for having sex with a women without ejaculating. I could not help but practice this even though I had not done the preparation exercises. I lost a few drops of clear semen in the process and had to edge to complete the practice. I had not edged in 223 days. After a significant chat with IGY on the chat I decided to reboot. He said "Do you want to objectify women and be addicted to dopamine rushes or keep to the guidelines of NoFap?". I had no choice but to reboot. Some achievements on the way: able to stand up for myself not hurt my family and extended family and not hurt them due to massive increase in self esteem and care for others. increased confidence and ease around all women including the ability to say no and be happy in myself. knowing that I have control over my masturbation and not being a victim of it. having the support of NoFap and the community here. losing 7lbs in one month when I put my mind to it. being happy everyday and having plenty of energy. started the process of breaking down desire into contentment. I just want to be able to reboot again with you guys and make use of my energy with helpful activities.
You had a great run @DannyCool of 223 days.I am sure it wasnt no easy run.This recent relapse will allow you to get up from defeat and come back stronger than ever.You can do it,dont let one relapse hurt you.Good Luck!
there was 2 months when I had no urges of notice and also another month and a halve of no urges other times the urges did not arrive that often. My main tactic was just not edge and let the urge pass and have a cold shower if necessary. This time I am going to choose contentment over urges, dopamine rushes, fantasising and objectifying. My main aim now is not to have no urges and a long streak rather to connect understand and appreciate the beauty of life.
I hope that i can go through this journey urge-free and a long streak but they are lessons for me to learn
Burn Down Those Urges. Let Them Burn You and then Cold Shower Them. Roar! Or else just leave go of them into pure pristine peace. I cannot do this yet but I will learn. I still think desire is better than contentment.
