SEVERE Depression and hopelessness from acting out on a fetish

Guys i recently made a decision that cost me more than i could imagine or bargain for.

Had i known the drastic effects i would have never done it.

Its thrown my entire life off course and is damaging my psyche.

I want to get over this, this is stressing me out completely.

Im trying to rationalize what happened and then just simply bury it but this just doesnt sit right with me no matter how many ways i try to flip it.


Its having a long term lasting effect which is scaring me. I dont want my mind to go any deeper into this dark rabbit hole.


Does anyone have experience with this and is able to put it in perspective? Im really needing guidance at the moment.

This is really urgent and im offering an opportunity for someone to have a discussion with me to try to help. I really appreciate it

 

This sucks so bad. If this never happened id put everything down and just go have fun. I have to worry about this every day. It sucks the life out of me.

All it does is make me bitter and angry. This is so unhealthy mentally.

I wanna be free from this.

 

This is misery, its like im looking at life through a glass window. Weeping over my great past and mourning over the dark cloud which will cover my whole future.

I cant really process this amount of pressure. Nothing i do makes it feel better. I dont know how to get over it

 

Damn get it off your chest maybe? We really don't know what you did but it might help

 

A problem shared is half solved

 

What makes addiction so effective is the darkness it creates, the first step to getting over it ha to do when opening up the door and letting some of the darkness out. Gradually light replaces it slowly but surely

 

I just cant take it anymore. I feel like one of the most extreme cases ever. Looking through the forum theres like 2 other people who are going through this the rest are dealing with much smaller problems.

I feel like im screwed forever because of this