Specific porn

There is a specific 'producer' that I'm highly addicted to. This has given me a 'special snowflake' mentality when it comes to nofap. I've looked at other nofappers success and thought to myself 'well there situation is different, they're just addicted to porn in general and that's easier to give up'. Of course this is complete nonsense and likely 'the addicted part of me' justifying the addiction itself.

As stated in this video (and I firmly believe it) 'the opposite of addiction is connection'. So here I am now looking for other nofappers who might be in a similar situation to me.

My relapses normally happen anywhere between 3-14 days in when I begin to think to myself 'I wonder what new scenes are out and which girls are featuring'. Then I'll keeping getting these thoughts and eventually 'check' which will inevitably lead to PMO'ing again.

Even if you're not in the current predicament any words of wisdom wouldn't go amiss.

Truthfully I love this kind of porn and it really gets me going and the feeling is great while watching it. But then of course after I've PMO'd I feel lethargic and get can't focus on anything. It's not conducive to leading a disciplined, productive and thoughtful life.

It also gets in the way of relationships. I have a girlfriend who I sometimes have to lie to and say "I feel tired" when she wants to have sex which is pretty pathetic from my point of view.

This is turning into more of a blogpost now so I'll wrap it up. Thankyou for reading.

 

Hi Kropo82, you've actually reminded me. Yes I have a few ideas. One idea is to always be wearing boxers and shorts. I work from home most of the time and like to lie on my bed in just my boxers. This however makes it very easy to slip into a PMO situation. Just the slightest temptation and I'm a few seconds away from PMO'ing. So although I find it very comfortable laying in my boxers I have to change that. Infact I think wearing shorts as well will act as a good reminder on why I'm wearing them in the first place and help me to stay focused on my challenge.

Another thing I'm planning to do is immediately go to the toilet and pee if I have any tempting thoughts or feel the slightest bit turn't on. This might sound strange but I find sometimes you just need to pee when you think you want to PMO.

Ultimately the easiest thing to do would be get out of the house more. However I can't justify doing this at the moment as I live in Hanoi in Vietnam, an extremely polluted city, recently the pollution levels have been very high so I've been staying at home a lot with my air purifier on at all times. This of course has lead to many short streaks whilst attempting nofap. However, writing this has just reminded me that it my previous accommodation I didn't have a lock on my bedroom. This lead to a 3 week streak simply because I didn't want to risk being caught in the middle of PMO'ing. The feeling during those three weeks was honestly amazing. I was much less anxious and laid back. So what I could do is leave my door in my current accommodation open and just lock it at night when I go to sleep. Infact I will do this.

There is one more thing I use that is software to block websites but I've learn't a very easy way to override them. Infact when I PMO these days I do in a kind of dazed manner like I've done so many times. I might infact uninstall the software and act on willpower alone as the software might've be a hindrance to my progress rather than a hindrance to watching porn.

I've been battling this addiction on my own now for years and just to converse with you over one post has inspired me a lot kropo82. I've read your opening post on your journal and the latest page in the thread. To get past 1000 days is absolutely incredible. Congratulations my friend. Truly inspiring.