First off, I gotta say that these few days of rebooting has been awesome, generally there are no depression, socializing feels easy and fun, and i feel an overall sense of purpose. I still slightly remember the horrible feelings of depression that I feel from before i started journey after each relapse. I used to use relapse as a way to let calm down and let the rest of the day be more "productive", but all it did is to make me depressed and I had to work faster because relapse preoccupies me for hours or so. Now I can see that it is much better to not relapse and be surrounded with the sense of slight bliss. Urges I am experiencing slight urges today. Probably due to a few reasons. First, I have not been sleeping longer than 6 hours over the weekend due to cram and crunching, second, because of that, I did not have a consistent gym routine, although I managed to get 30 min workout each day, and third, I did not spend time on studying rebooting materials. Everyday I strive to achieve 5 things - Time allocation, workout 45 min, 15 minute meditation every 3 hours, 30 minute reading nofap materials, and sleep by 9:30. In the past few days I had not achieve all 5 yet, and this all contributed into rising urges. How I deal with it/Plan to I strive to stay vigilant and know that the stake here is even higher than that of the school. I have a specific battle plan of dealing with urges 1, remind myself that this is the addiction kicking in, and know I am in danger zone 2, immedietely go down and do 30 push ups 3, if that work, go meditate or read nofap forum 4, if that doesnt, go outside for a walk 5, if that doesnt work, workout/ go to gym 6, sleep right away, without any eletronic Knowing the stake is very helpful. One important lesson learned is that I must deal with an urge and not let it expand, even if that may take away time from what im currently doing. It is better to break off an urge right away than be working with one constantly annoying and dragging me.
