I'm 32 and I've been struggling with pornography and masturbation since I was twelve. I've been married for twelve years. My wife told me today I have one last chance to quit this addiction or she will divorce me. She's been telling me for a long time, but I haven't really heard her and internalized what she's been saying until now. The addiction has turned me into a selfish self focused person who had completely emotionally withdrawn. I hate myself. Every time my wife does something nice for me I hate myself more because I don't deserve it. All I can think about is that I'm going to die alone and unloved. Where do I start? How do I move forward?