I am glad to see that I am about to make it 20! I was very busy since the beginning of Feb, but I am taking a rest this week. I found that once I slow down my pace, the thought will come up again, and it will attack me a lot, so I think this means that I still have to keep myself busy again, try to do as much job as I can, I can't imagine the life back in the old time, so I will try to make myself busy again, I love the feeling going back to life, I can't ruin it simply because of my feeling!