story about me , mom and porn

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  1. ibrahim1997

    ibrahim1997 New Fapstronaut

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    Hello everyone this is my first thread in this forum and i would ask u to forgive me about my bad English


    my story started 8 years ago(that time I was 14 years old) accidental i heard my dad and mom having sex i get completely aroused i felled many different feelings about that i felt Erotic excitement and shame and love and hate all this feelings in the same time


    i know they did not do any thing wrong

    i understand that and I respect that ,,
    but from that moment i have a strong desire to eavesdrop to them each time they get sex !!

    And concenterate on their body after that and her clothes !!


    Sever desire to imagine mom and dad doing same positions in porn clips

    And imagine mom moans and asking more like porn stars


    Sever desire to spy on them and record them a video while having sex (did not actulley

    do that )


    Sever desire to imagine my mom with other guy


    Sever desire to think in my mom as **** all she wants to have sex


    Sever desire to find an even small exictment in any other guy`s eyes when seeing mom


    Sever desire to catch it cheating on my dad so I can humiliate and trade that to can have sex with her exactly like porn clips



    this desires are slight growing day by day and feed by porn clips between mom and son for many years I saw almost all kinds clips of this abnormal relation , I feel aroused on any other type of porn but exactly this category make my brain explodes


    After that situation I thought I need to talk to anyone I made a fake accounts on social media and start to write my story I find many people like me having similer sition and start attrectiving to their moms

    Then the talk did not stop to this level but reach for sex chatting and send photoes and talk dirty talk about everyone’s mom!!



    I tried many times to reboot

    And I always relapse due to the extreme desire to sex chatting about mom and mom /son porn clips !!


    I hope found some help to overcome this shit
     
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  2. Thanks for sharing your story and being brave. It’s a big thing to understand when you feel the need for help and it is a even bigger deal to seek help and advice.
    There are many points of advice people can give you on NoFAP but there are also many things that can harm and influence a young man like yourself negatively. For this reason and the nature of your compulsion i strongly recommend you seek the advice and help from a professional. I am sorry if that is hard to hear but I say it truly out of kindness and respect. I do not know if this is a possibility for you but if it is do not feel any shame. It is a weak man who hides behind a false act of strength because he is too scared to ask for help. A strong man admits when he needs support and isn’t too prideful to seek it. You are half way there by beginning this post and sharing but please for your own sake seek a therapist who can provide treatment and who is qualified to do so. Anything else you are only cutting yourself short.
    All the best!
     
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  3. Add On:
    If there is not a service provider or health expert near you or available to you there are options online you can seek out. If money is an issue then i can give you basic non-specific advice.
    1. Porn influences and shapes sexual tastes. This is self evident and absolutely effects the mind of a person. You know this. Treat each day like day 1, forget streaks, and each day go as many hours as you can without porn. That is the basic. Each day say “ I am day 1, and today I will go as many hours as I can no porn.”
    2. A plan when you face urges. Write them down! This turns dreams, into goals, and into reality. Without a plan you will not succeed. After you create a plan you create steps to achieve this.
    3. Make room every week to sit still and meditate. This helps an individual see into their thinking process and can create space between the “thinker” and the “thoughts”, if that makes sense.
    4. Find a way to get professional qualified therapy from someone with a degree. Whatever that takes make it a goal. These people can help you understand yourself and your thinking processes in ways an average person can not. Sometimes we humans get so tangled up our lives and thought patterns we need assistance from someone to help untangle us. There is no shame in this.
     
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