story about me , mom and porn

Thanks for sharing your story and being brave. It’s a big thing to understand when you feel the need for help and it is a even bigger deal to seek help and advice.
There are many points of advice people can give you on NoFAP but there are also many things that can harm and influence a young man like yourself negatively. For this reason and the nature of your compulsion i strongly recommend you seek the advice and help from a professional. I am sorry if that is hard to hear but I say it truly out of kindness and respect. I do not know if this is a possibility for you but if it is do not feel any shame. It is a weak man who hides behind a false act of strength because he is too scared to ask for help. A strong man admits when he needs support and isn’t too prideful to seek it. You are half way there by beginning this post and sharing but please for your own sake seek a therapist who can provide treatment and who is qualified to do so. Anything else you are only cutting yourself short.
All the best!

 

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If there is not a service provider or health expert near you or available to you there are options online you can seek out. If money is an issue then i can give you basic non-specific advice.
1. Porn influences and shapes sexual tastes. This is self evident and absolutely effects the mind of a person. You know this. Treat each day like day 1, forget streaks, and each day go as many hours as you can without porn. That is the basic. Each day say “ I am day 1, and today I will go as many hours as I can no porn.”
2. A plan when you face urges. Write them down! This turns dreams, into goals, and into reality. Without a plan you will not succeed. After you create a plan you create steps to achieve this.
3. Make room every week to sit still and meditate. This helps an individual see into their thinking process and can create space between the “thinker” and the “thoughts”, if that makes sense.
4. Find a way to get professional qualified therapy from someone with a degree. Whatever that takes make it a goal. These people can help you understand yourself and your thinking processes in ways an average person can not. Sometimes we humans get so tangled up our lives and thought patterns we need assistance from someone to help untangle us. There is no shame in this.