Dear all, I have been able to not watch porn since September 7, which is almost 104 days by now. I am still going strong on no-porn mantra. However, I failed after 49 days and again started to cruise for sex. I feel like a total loser. The worst part of all this is that the outcome is nothing and I only end up losing my precious time. I just hate myself for this.
I was so distraught by the failure that I ended up relapsing. Resetting my counter again to beat the previous achievement. Each day is such a struggle.
Having a relapse isn't the end of all. Look at the positive side of it: you've more experienced now! And if you feel bad or disgust or something, it's also bigger than before and you have better chances when you rise up and start again. It's a progress, painfully slow sometimes.
