Successful people, can you check my current state..

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by TQuit, Mar 19, 2016.

  1. TQuit

    TQuit Fapstronaut

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    Hiya,

    20 days in doing basically a hard/monk mode and not looked at any p or had p fantasies. Was 3 times a day pmo addicted, some mild pied and had performance anxiety and basically a fear of having sex as its been so long.

    I got paranoid week 2 that my junk was never going to work again and attempted a fap during a very emotional period where i was also flatlined, 100% ED over 5 minutes. a day later got some of an erection but was so paranoid.

    2 days ago, played with myself as my head is back together, stress free relaxed, thinking of 2 girls I am into in real life that are also into me (at least physically)... hard for 30 minutes, lighter touching, no deathgrip, swapping hands, rubbing top of penis.. no O.. felt like a new man.

    This morning, played with myself, stress free relaxed, thinking of 2 girls I am into in real life that are also into me (at least physically)... hard for 1 hour in total, lighter touching, no deathgrip, swapping hands, rubbing top of penis.. no O.. felt amazing.

    I feel i'm healing, never had fantasies like that before and never stayed hard like that either ever but I know that I shouldn't be touching or thinking about this at all... so I wanted to know what people that have had success think, should I beat myself up about this or congratulate myself a little.
     
  2. fil.exe

    fil.exe Fapstronaut

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    You're supporting the pathways that nourished the addiction firstly.

    These articifial Dopamine and Oxytocine sources certainly hinders your COMPLETE rewiring.
     
  3. TQuit

    TQuit Fapstronaut

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    @ GL Lucid
    Thanks for the reply.

    I've jumped the gun a little bit and think I need to just cool it a bit. I suppose going from a 60% erection for the last couple years to having this crazy big thing ready to rumble has been somewhat overwhelming.

    I was so confident I even started looking back on hookup sites.

    I hear you about COMPLETE rewiring, its no good just being a few weeks in when a couple more months is at least what I need.

    Thanks.
     
  4. Thechosenone

    Thechosenone Fapstronaut

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    if you want complete rewiring then it'll take longer man, keep a goal in your head - imagine yourself, the person, who doesn't need to fap or watch any porn. Try and become that man. Who what where why and how can you do it?

    who do you need to become?
    what do you need to do?
    where do you need to go or change environments?
    why do you need to do this? - remind yourself.
    how are you going to do this? action plan.
     

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