Suddenly, wet dreams :D

I've been struggling with nofap a little bit lately. Had a lot of relapses at short intervals during the last month. I'm hoping to get back on the horse soon, preferably right now, or at the latest, on new year's day. It's been an emotionally challenging month, and I didn't manage to deal with it very well, so I went back into my old, pathetic ways.

But in other news, this month I've also had some wet dreams, which is weird, because I've been relapsing over and over again, so it can't be just my body getting rid of excess semen. I'm thinking this is more of a psychological thing: my mind is suddenly allowing me to have these dreams for some reason (never had them before). My relapses this month have included porn only twice, and before that, I had a three-month long not using porn streak, so I have distanced myself from porn rather well, but the fapping still remains.

I see this as a positive thing, because I find that my wet dreams reflect my real, natural sexuality pretty accurately. They're not crazy porn fantasies, but actually really light vanilla stuff. I think they are a sign of some change going on in my brain, brought on by doing nofap off and on for a full year (!), so I don't really regret having them.