Tell me abit about your longest streak.

20 days, It was then I did not use games, movies, and did not consume coffee. Since all of this is back I can not further than 10 days.

Mostly after 7 days, the urges increase, often really worse for me. I am fantasizing about a lot of girls and sex by then.

 

Feeling free, peaceful, stronger, more handome (not a joke, my self-perception has improved, or maybe it has been my body), full of energy, braver (willing to do things i wouldn't do before), etc...
There are some urges that appear every 1 or 2 months, especially in heavy stress situation (exams).
I can contain them far more easily that i used to. At this point you feel some strong urges, of course, but the main problem are the little deceptions with which PM try to hook you again.

 

I did go a full month without relapsing about 2 years ago. Strange thing is I don’t remember if I did anything special.

Probably I was just in a good place mentally - less stress than usual

 

I am currently in my 18th month of semen retention and I'm 42 years old.

Addiction robbed me of my youth and absolutely devastated my life. In my late 30s I finally quit drinking which was the absolute hardest thing I've ever done in life. Withdrawal almost killed me and the PAWS was horrendous. I started doing retention about a year after the PAWS subsided and now I'm experiencing the craziness that is post withdrawal for a second time. Some days I feel like I'm on top of the world, other days (like the last few) I feel like the world is crashing down around me.

I view this hurdle as the last one that needs to be cleared before a beautiful life free of addiction awaits me. It sucks that I waited until middle age but better late than never right?

This whole journey has been both the most beautiful and painful thing I've ever experienced.