the 'correction'

hello. i'm still not sure what to say here...
okay, i've wasted thousands of my precious hours watching porn and/or masturbating in the last 5/5.5 years and my username defines correctly what i've come to being.
the hours that could have been utilized to study, to pick up a skill or a hobby, make some good friendships or meaningful relationships...the hours that could have shaped my life...
my brain is messed up severely, it can't think straight, it can't think right, it doesn't want challenges, nor changes.
been facing depression for past 3 yrs, saw a therapist couple of years back, didn't help much. it is a vicious cycle- i feel depressed, anxious and to feel better i go to porn and jack off and the guilt, shame, disgust gush right away.
so, why am i here?
this is a fight, perhaps the last one, against something that has ruined me as a person, ruined my life.
i am going to 'correct' my brain and myself and this is where i am holding myself accountable.
thank you.