I think you're right. During my last streak, I didn't feel they were so frequent too. I think because I relapsed after around 30 days part of me is obsessed to not break my streak again. I was so upset with myself last time that my thoughts got a little bit obsessed with relapsing and everything... also the internet is a dangerous place and things lurk around the corner where you don't expect them. So this constant alertness adds to it and makes its way into my dreams. I had another one tonight, it's a little bit stressful but at the same time I almost feel stronger today
Dude wait a second, I'm sorry, I meant to copy paste that in a conversation with another guy , I only meant the first part of my reply.
For me it's actually the opposite. I don't have much trouble staying clean the first couple of weeks, because my libido is always very low after relapsing. After a couple of weeks the desire starts to rise and at that point the real challenge begins.
Ahhh... I tricked myself. Told myself I wasn't going to relapse and yet at the same time kept myself in a situation where I could easily relapse. As lovely as it would be, just "believing" isn't enough. I have to take action when I'm triggered. Back to Day 0. But hey, my average streak is essentially a week now, a big improvement on what I used to be capable of.