The pain with my ex gf gets less and less, but one sexual behaviour was a problem

WHen I was in my relatoinship, I struggled with porn. And it felt horrible. But the problem is, I did not tell my gf. She did not knew. But she knew I was suffering. And she was suffering because she did not knew what was going on.

I thought if I told her that I would lose her. But I lost her anyways. But I am happy to got rid from a girl (not gf) with whom I got in touch with sexting. And throuhg sexting I came in touch with camgirls, and lost a lot of money of it. And I had two relapses, although I was in a relationship. And I could not talk to her. I felt so shitty.

And because I could not talk she said, I did not trust her. I should have get first rid of the PMO addiction and of sexting and camgirls.

And after she got a new one, I felt betrayed. Really betrayed. And that hurt. Since then I really hate porn. I never want to watch porn again. Because if I watch porn, my future girl will feel like she is not good enough. And I don´t want her to give this feelings. This feeling is horrible.
From sexting I am now 72 Days free, and from visiting (only visiting not interacting( a camgirl website I am 21 days free.

I need only to get rid of PMO completely. I don´t want to watch that trash anymore. I want to be free of it, and in a relationship, where my girl is happy, and where we support each other, without trust issues.

And by the way, I don´t like "likes", I love comments. Comments usually always helps.

 

So you want to do your hobbies again= I want to be in a relationship, but I can´t now thx to PMO Addiction.

 

You have 500 days and more on your streak. And i understand what you mean, you lost so much, to that annyonig PMO addiction. but after 500 days should´t you have been rebooted?