The saddest thing about my failed attempts in the last 4 years?

The sad thing is I found this forum aged 18 just 4 years ago before I began university. I remember everyone telling me it was the prime time to stop. University would produce so many sexual opportunities. I considered myself lucky to find NoFap so young.

Over the course of those 4 years, my longest streak was only 2 months. I relapsed so much once every few weeks. I missed every single sexual opportunity at uni, mostly due to self sabotage.

I even developed an escort problem. All that wasted time. I'm grieving over it.

On a streak now and I have experience which helps me go longer than I used to, because I know what works and what doesn't, but its just incredibly sad and depressing looking back at my old posts from 2015.