A little background story about myself. I was a very active ripped person who loved being outdoors. I managed to complete an apprenticeship in a Top railway engineering company andmake a great living. Over the last 5years I had put on to put on quitesome weight. After my 18th birthday I began smoking and drinkingexcessively as here in the uk the legal age to buy both is 18. This went on afew years until a bad car crash, as you guessed it, drink driving. So stupidbut hey lessons learnt, luckily no onewas hurt or even killed. So I decided to not buy a replacement but rather started cycling and commuting. Thisdefinitely helped me improve myhealth and lead to me successfullyquitting smoking last year April. This came after a trip to vegas where people smoke indoors.. argh Yuck.Thankfully after years of trying I completely quit smoking last year and it felt like a great weight was off myshoulders. Now..... For as long as I can remember, from the age of 11 having access to alaptop, it was like a world away from having a desktop PC. So much privacy and yet so much danger, so to the point I would take my mothers laptop without her permission to my room just to use it so I could access porn. As I got older, I had my own phone with internet, then a PSP where Icould get my fix and eventually the laptop. You name it, every device I've owned with a screen and internet I've used to watch, download and stream porn, no shame what so ever, everyones gone to sleep great, the PS3 and TV all to myself. That was inmy younger days. The funny this isfrom 14 to 22 , I've had a girlfriend whom I introduced to porn and weboth were comfortable talking it andwatching it together. But as you know, the more you watch and consume, the more your appetite changes, what used to do it no longer feels the same, and you switch to things you neverthought you would ever get into to get off. Your expectations and fetishes become more extreme and your idea of sex changes entirely. But in the relationship, arguments would stem over. Decided to break it off and see other woman. Now the problem wasn't the inability to perform but rather the objectification of a woman becamebad. Where oddly enough me and her stilltalk and we have been supporting each other through our big change and this Lockdown in effect, gettingfitter and eating healthier was on top of the priority list. In one of ourconversations, she mentioned a'Dopamine fast', I became curiousafter watch a few TED talks on porn and now I understand what happensto the brain when you treat porn and masturbation it as part of your everyday routine. More than anything now time is so precious, so here I am finally, after reading so many NoFapcomments on youtube after those TED Talks. I'm finally ready to embark on this Journey to a better me. So, On Monday 18th May 2020, I start my dopamine fast and up until knowits been great, I've been keeping busy and active but, its crazy times in themiddle of the night like now when the old temptation creeps back. This time I'm going all the way, no going back. I deleted any porn related accounts Ihad and I am fully committed to tackling my final addiction, i conquered smoking, drinking excessively and procrastination to get fit, So as I was making this account, Ieven learnt I had made an accountyears ago with my old email address still connected, but yet never gave it a real chance. Having read all variousthreads and stories, I know I'm in the right place and with all your support and encouragement Gentleman andwoman, we will overcome! Let's dothis. P.s. Ive never shared so much anonymously and I would like to start off by saying, Man that feels great! Thanks for taking the time out toread. Feel free to leave a comment or even ask me a question. I'm here to get better myself but, if you are struggling with anything I mentioned above, I'm here to not only learn but also help.
