wow I dunno where to begin. started masturbating at age 12, now 29. that's 17 years ive masturbated. from 19-29 ive masturbated anywhere from 2x-8x a day. I tell myself everyday I need to quit otherwise ill forever be in the rut and never get out. quitting is actually very hard when youre depressed like me. if I am not jerking off I feel very alone and suicidal. when I masturbate I feel like shit, but I can still feel normal at least. idk guys, should I just hang myself?
Do read this. It got me through some strong urges. http://husbandhelphaven.com/porn-addiction-withdrawal-walkthrough/
Hello @Deadmemories, I’m sorry to hear that you are struggling. Rebooting has its ups and downs, just like life. We see many people experiencing both the ups and downs during the reboot, and though it may be hard to see now, these feelings you are having won’t last forever. It will get better with time, if you are patient and wait. In the meantime, please seek professional help. I know the idea of calling a helpline might terrify you, but in times of crisis, we often need someone their to put our lives in perspective. So please contact someone who can help and don’t hang up on them. The International Association for Suicide Prevention maintains a list of suicide prevention hotlines for countries all over the world. Also, if you don’t feel up to actually talking to someone on the phone, unsuicide maintains a list of online Instant Messaging and chat suicide prevention resources. You are not alone in this. There are ways to treat depression. Please contact people that can help you. Being depressed often makes it feel like you don’t have any more options. But that is a lie. That is just the depression talking. These feeling you have won’t last forever. We are in this with you, and we will all be cheering for you to get through this!
