So okay. Taking a huge risk here for you guys! Will fap again. No urges, just want to understand the difference. I will come back, no worries! Will try to to this for some time and then climb back Journey was easy. Maybe next time will feel different but f it. Let's go! You can judge me or see me as an retarded idiot, but I want to experimentate for you guys to report feelings of doing this all of the sudden. Haha, wish me luck!