Time to Conquer The Beast

I've PMO'd since before I could really O - you know, when dust would come out. I think I found porn on my own and assumed it was normal, especially once I found out that all of my friends watched it as well. I have tried to quit in a nonchalant manner several times in the last 5 years, but this time is different (as a true addict would say lol). I made a commitment to myself and I have biblical levels of determination to conquer the beast that is PMO addiction.

I am currently on day 6 of my journey. Although I have not watched P for about 3 weeks, I wanted to reset the clock after cutting out MO. I came to the realization that MO had to go after reading Wack: Addicted to Internet Porn by Noah Church. P and M are simply too entangled to not abstain from both - especially considering my original sexual wiring was 100% PMO.

I've walked through life too long as an observer and it's time for me to become an active participant. I don't want to be afraid of being human and I want to be in control of my future. More than anything, I want to rewire myself to a loving, committed relationship.

I know this is going to be difficult, but I am armed with the knowledge and all the reason in the world to better my life.

I look forward to learning from you guys and hopefully helping others as well.

My promise to myself: I will be writing a success story before the end of this year.