Today realized.. I have to take this addiction seriously.

It's so dumb to think about it like.. You fap to porn and then you feel sad,guilty and shame.. Anxiety.. Numb.. All that. Most importantly drive to do anythings, low energy and day is ruined by this activity. Today I thought this in my head and write it all down to paper how it affects me, what do I gain by doing it? I have been sick also recently, and I fap 5 to 7 times a day I think it affects you in other areas too in life. I will be occupied here nofap forums now on, and take my life in control. No way letting myself go like this. I want to let this go, 90 days starts now.. Now 0. I'm at rock bottom, only way is up.