Total Isolation

And he will overtime. I've seen several other posts where people have similar temptations because of porn. But as they recover those temptations become less and less and their desires match up to what they were before PMO. I had a recent relapse, but now, and even during my streak, I don't desire all the things I used to because of my addiction. I'm not perfect but am definitely feeling closer to how I was before. And BTW you are never alone. Sit close with God and he will lead you to others.

 

That is a good point you made about PMO and religious faith. A major reason I began to lose faith in college is that I felt PMO was incompatible with Christianity, so one or the other had to go eventually.

 

I hope your faith journey takes you to a place where you want to be. I also had faith, then I left it - I didn't set up a proper moral compass, though, and became worse with PMO and other filthy stuff. I don't think I'm going back but I appreciate the social/moral foundation it provides. You'll be better once you put your mind to it and fight. Sounds easy, but it isn't. It's simple but difficult. Stay strong, man. At your core is a better person. Unearth him.

 

Every thing we see, hear feel affects us. People just want to manipulate others. That's what the TV is all about. They want to get into our dreams and ideas. Once they get in our mind it's like virus.

Human can't control ideas properly. They just abuse this. I said my parent I don't want TV but we still have TV. When I move to my own house I would not let the TV in.

I don' understand people with P addiction who are married. Why don't spend time with your wife/husband ?

I think the reason is misunderstanding of marriage. After marriage you become one person with your spouse. You wouldn't have anything that your spouse don't know. You wouldnt have anything that you have access but s/he don't. You can read private messages of your spouse cuz you and your spouse are the private know.(unless one of them is an agent)

 

Heh, heh.. I love that username of yours @LOSEmyselftoSAVEmyself. You must be well aquainted with the sermon on the mount.

I’m well aquainted with isolation. It’s a dangerous practice to enter into willingly, at least for extended durations. It’s only a matter of time before you end up face to face with the kind of stuff that can destroy you...but if your spirit is vigilant and strong, isolation can give you the opportunity to find and deal with the kinds of things that weigh you down on your deepest levels.

Just saying, if things start getting weird or frightening for you in this habit of yours, reach out to me in PM...okay?

 

Total Isolation can be a good thing or a bad thing, depending on your perspective of course. What I find what works for me is I get up in the morning meditate for 15 minutes. This clears my mindstate really well. If after awhile I start to feel negative, lets say a coworker is causing me stress, I meditate again. And it does work for me. As for watching porn, I rarely get urges any more. Maybe 3 or 4 times out of the whole month. I too believe watching hetero porn put me on the borderline of being bi-sexual. I have never attempted to attract the same gender, and I seem to enjoy women extremely more. I need more days of abstinence to fully understand this situation thouroghly, so im not jumping to conclusions yet. Try meditating "properly" when youre isolated again, it will give you a new perspective. It wont happen overnight though, like everything else that is mastered it is done so because of practice my friend, good luck!

 

Excellent point on meditation! I was hesitant at first however after a couple weeks I began to feel as though I could deconstruct any problem I had, and I still do feel this way. I started by looking through a meditation book I got a year ago but now I listen to guided meditations on my phone. I DO need to do it more often! Right now I only meditate at night. I keep thinking about yoga too, but again I'm unsure about something lol.