Well I have introduced myself on the working out part of my life. Lets take some time to tell you how far I am on my recovery. Last year I found out about my addiction even being an addiction. I had lost a very comitted relationship over it and after getting with a girl again and having PIED I was very down. Finally after a TED talk I found a new goal in life.... Getting over my addiction. I had the following sings related to my problems with internet porn: - lack of motivation - trouble sleeping - severe PIED - crazy fetishes - no selfcontrol - depression - very negative thinking of everything - social anxiety - probably a lot more, but these were the most annoying. After the TED-talks I bought the book 'your brain on porn' and I started the reboot journey. This was very hard at the beginning, but I pulled through with my strong will and educating myself and building relapse systems. I came this year at day 383, but then relapsed. This was because I had fought my addiction, but still did not work on the other things. The biggest thing is work on which I am currently trying to work and shifting to another career. Things like these take time and a lot of ups and downs. But I am still going strong. Yesterday night I had relapsed after 8 days, because I saw a sentence on tv which reminded me of a pornclip. To prevent me from relapsing I have written down and put on my desk 5 options of things to do when I feel that I want to relapse. Hopefully this will work. I will keep you guys updated.
I very much relate to the side effects you have from P. It looks like you have a solid plan to be free. I like that you wrote down 5 things to do when you are tempted. That is a great idea.
Well @Ketherlonk and @jw2021 I am trying not to relapse, but it keeps happenings to me. I know that I get triggered from tv and my phone. I try to use them as little as possible, but I keep only getting 3-day streaks this time. I am now reading Antony Robbins book with NLP in it. Hopefully it works. Do you find it okay if I keep you guys updated on here? I think I need some accountabiliypartners to get me trough the first month again. Please let me know if you also maybe have some tips.
Please keep us updated. TV was a big problem for me. In order to have any sobriety at all, I had make a decision not to watch tv. If I do watch, I watch shows that I have watched in the past that I know are not triggering.
Okay thank you very much. I will not watch live tv anymore, only movies or shows I know. From tonight on I will try to do my best at getting sober.
In the weekend I relapsed due to a lot of stress I experienced because of the comming days. At friday I had sent a lot of letters and emails to companies I want to work for in combination with my new bachelor education. And today I would have contact with my boss for the first time in 3 months. So a lot on my plate and the only thing that had made me happy the last years when I expierenced these emotions was relapsing. But never the less I am going for my future and trying to accept some of the emotions which go along with the journey. It takes a lot of hard work, but will be worth it. I am trying to totally banish watching tv after a certain time and read instead. Next update will be at day 10.
Hey @Badassbodybuilder. Sorry for the late reply. I don't know if it's possible for you but I've pretty much completely locked down my phone. All I can do on it is text and call. I used the computer for internet stuff and it's pretty much locked as well. Do you have a filter or accountability software on your phone/computer? To me that's been really helpful. All the best and I look forward to your updates.
