We keep trying, and we keep failing. [To the people who just failed]

Failing every day,
Never going all the way,

We act as if tomorrow's the day,
But then we fail ourselves, no way!

Not again, never, ever or else
I may find myself in a sea of hell

Running frantically in the dark
Is it dark, I don't know...

I can't tell anymore, whether I'm in day light or night, or anything else. Maybe I don't care anymore. I feel numb inside although I haven't lost hope... I will never lose hope. I've tasted happiness so I know it's there, so why do I keep going there?
To the bad sights where demons are seeded in my mind that make me hide from my life and hate everyone around me because I've convinced me that I hate myself...

It's a lie, of course. We are born loving ourselves. We are born believing. We are born knowing we're here for something more than this but all of this is what is more than this... We're born in happiness, feeling the glee before we're traumatized and made to believe that something outside of us controls our fate. It doesn't.

Ok, I'll start making sense now.

We're taught we need something outside of us from a young age. We're taught that daddy and mommy and teachers won't love us unless we please them, and we'll be left alone to fend for ourselves only we're also taught not to believe in ourselves. We're taught we need to be taken care of and if we don't obey and follow the rules then we won't get that extra help rendering us helpless and that's when we seek the addiction....

We cry and complain because that's what we were taught, we weren't taught that nobody gives a shit about our problems because they're messed up too. That's true, and so is this: You can do it. You can take control of your fate, your destiny, that spirit inside of you that's there to help. It will guide you. It is you. All the self doubt, the need for approval, the need for pleasure at the expense of health is all stuff that was put in you. From a young age someone told you that you weren't good enough, and you never figured out that you are good enough. Maybe you knew a long time ago before your ego and thoughts took over. Kids are vulnerable and absorb information like sponges, so if you are told to be afraid, afraid you will be, but it doesn't have to be like that. The fear of withdrawal symptoms doesn't have to exist, and it doesn't have to run you. The fear of not being perfect or comfortable or safe doesn't have to haunt you or control you. You are in control. And when I say you, I mean God.