Weekly long challenge

Almost 4 weeks and I relapsed. Back to day 1. Rebounding has always been my weakness so wish me luck.

 

Day 1 down!

 

I find a good way to start would be to take it in baby steps, try go 1 week first, then 10 days, then 2 weeks then try to stop for good. I tried quitting cold turkey just like that, and boy was that hard (I went 3 weeks with no pmo and that was my max) but when u build up to it, and plan it out it feels much more manageable. Also I noticed that if you tried before, it gets easier in general, then if it's your first or second time trying to stop

 

I fell off the wagon this morning and gave in to my urges. I've been on the verge multiple times, but I was always able to shut myself down. Once I started, I felt guilty because I knew what I was doing was wrong, but I couldn't stop because my brain said, "Well, you've gotten this far into it, you're going to have to call it a failure anyway. You might as well enjoy it."

I hate that I gave in, to begin with, but the fact that I thought that there was no redeeming myself for stopping it bothers me even more. I made it 18 days, which seemed like an impossible feat when I started, but I think that I can do better this time. While my original goal was to see how far I could go without, my new goal is to continue that while working on my thought processes.

 

After 28 days I gave in and went on a "bender" of sorts. Committed to hitting this addiction hard again. Day 1. Lets do this!

 

In on day 5

 

Day 4 on Round 2 (since joining nofap). I'm committed this time to keep going. I had some issues a couple days ago, but I withstood it.