What Hindu born fapstronauts think and feel about Hinduism

As a handicaped person who was born as a Christian (Catholic), but have been trying to convert to Hinduism (Vaishnavism), I am very glad to see fapstronauts who are born as a Hindu. I can't help myself to be curious, and would like to know what you, Hindu born fapstronauts, think of modern Hinduism and what are your feelings about it, and, everyday spiritual practice.

Did you ever peruse yur religion, doubt in it, consider to became atheists, or consider to change your religion? Did you ever spoke your mind out, and what were reactions of your surrounding, and your loved ones?

Sadly to say that from the time I said I believe in reincarnation, my mother and dad didn't accept my change of religion and said I was Hater of Jesus, although this is far from the truth.

As a handicaped person I am unable to cook and earn food for myself. I have some monney monthly from my country. I am grateful for this money, and any other help my country provide me. Nobody is obliged to give it to me.

For these rasons, I am unable to practice Vaishnavism. There are also perenial, never ending and stubborn presure from my surroundings to go to church. Which I do, but very unwilingly and only at Sunday.

 

Yes, Plato and other weswtern philosophers are great. But, what I needed as a handicaped child, who was the weakest in the classrom and was tortured by my classmate was, simple logical answer to my question, why I am handicaped, why so many people live in powerty, while others live much happier life than we, handicaped children. Why God who is most pious and see everything punished us??? The answer from my mother was that everybody have to bear their cross (everybody suffer more-or-less). I asked, but why sufferings aren't equally divided? Why God punished me so severely?

She replied: - we love you son as such as you are. I responded yes you love me, but why God punished me? Why I can't play with other children, why I can't go to school excursion like other children. She frowned being unable to give me reasonable answer.

Only reasonable answer to this question I found in reincarnation theoriy. I firstly learn a meditation technique called Mental Dynamics which is technique from Kabala. Later I found much finer and elaborate answers from Vaishnavism.

As can bee seen from the above explanation, my destiny has been that I am Heretic.

It is true that Plato was realy big philosopher. But what I needed when I was twelve to twenty years old wasn't Plato's book The State, but simple and concise answer why I suffer so much. Why the suffering aren't divided more equally.

I disagree. Behaving like believer in one religion, but actually believing in totally different religion is hypocrisy. Latin poet Virgil said: - Choosing the G-o-d-s we choose our destiny.

 

I rather believe that my handicap is karmic reaction for my misdeeds, than that I choose to be born as handicaped. Because being incarnated in human body is alredy very limitting for any spiritual advancement.

Yes. I am not my body. I am not my current circumstances naming, samskaras... etc.

Anyway... it seems that here are realy few Hindu born fapstronauts. If any of you see this thread, please tell me which Indian forum on English I language can join to discuss their view on celibacy and other spiritual practices. I would like to join a secualr, but yet religiously oriented forum.

 

Yes.. real or not, these stories simply cannot go out from an average or spiritually non conscious mind.

BTW, nice to see you again.