what I have noticed on myself over 3 weeks

Positive points
-more sensitive
-more confidence
-talks with more women, sometimes they start first
-gain strong feelings to one of my friend, I think I fall in love (It has been a while that I have that feeling that I actually really really care about someone)
-positive things happen in RL (I m moving to abroad, so far everything goes smooth) I m really looking forward to
-I made one course that I need, I spend whole day doing this
-In social life when I m with people around me I feel really good that I m not watching porn like loser, makes me more confortable



Negative points
-have big urges, I m horny as fuck, but I don't want to M, I need real women
-rollercoster mood,
-feel lonely (even if I hang out regularly) , no one really care
-lack of women touching
-fall in love (she doesn't) it is bother me but it shouldn't because I m leaving the city for one year I know that love passed but tell to my brain right. Still I hang out with her (sometimes just we, sometimes with her friends) more often than in past We we got lot of memories and it is still continues.
-strong sexual desire (absolutely no interest to watch porn, but want to real experience)

That feelings goes up and down , it could change from minute to minute. That's really hard stay strong, positive, cool etc. I have suspicious if I have loving supportive gf I could be really really strong in all ways. However it may be not true, firstly I need to be happy with myself that I m not at this very moment.