Whazzzzzzap! (My first post) :3

Hi there my new friends!

So this is my attempt to finaly curb my mastrubation problem. I went cold turkey and stoped viewing porn back in April but I still havent managed to kick this mastrubation habit.


So... Here is a little bit about me and my goals.

Disclaimer: I talk about religion in this post because its the drive for why im quitting, but the point of this is not to share my oppinions about religion. I'm here to recieve support and give support to others in regards to quitting PMO.

I am a christian and I know that without a doubt, unclean habits like PMO are wrong and that they jack up your life, so that is my primary reason for quitting. I also believe that sex before marriage is wrong so because of that, I've never had sex and I wont till I get married. So my goal is to get to a point in my life where my sex drive isn't controling me and quit PMO once and for all.

When I was 13 I caught my dad viewing porn (he has since curbed the problem) and seeing him do that downplayed the importance of how bad it was, so I decided to try it. It was mostly out of curiosity, but over time it became a real addiction. I would watch porn every night and didn't have much desire to stop.

I first tried to stop PMO when I was 16 because I started taking the bible more seriously and I wanted to develop a friendship with God. So, I went cold turkey and managed to hold off on porn for about 2 months or so. Then the bad habit came back and I started to feel depressed and just stoped trying.

The next time I tried to quit was when I was 18. I wanted to become a full time minister, so I stopped watching porn and went about 4 months. They approved me to be a full time minister but after about 3 months into my term, I started to watch softcore porn. Unfortunatly, I was afriad of embaressment so I tried to stop on my own and I never told anyone.


So I kept that up until I was 19. Me and my family moved out of state and I never made very many friends. I started to feel depressed and guilty, and I realized that this wasn't the kind of life I wanted to live. My enviroment was terrible. I didn't have work, I didn't have a drivers licence (I never had the motivation to get one), I didn't have any friends, my room was a mess, and I didn't have any good habits. I had no goals or anything to look foward too. So....

Back in April I decided enough was enough and I really had this life changing moment. I sent a text to one of the brothers in my congregation and told him all that happend. He was very kind to me and he helped me so much. They had to remove me as a full time minister, which was really hard, but it allowed me to be able to grow as a person and help myself. They were so supportive and helped me. I also told my parents which helped.

This was the point where my life started to turn around. I went cold turkey and stopped PMO. I felt so good about myself and so confident. So I got a drivers license and found a job that I enjoy doing. About two months in, I started to masturbate again, but I never went back to porn. And since then I've been trying hard to curb mastribating but I haven't gone more than a 2 week streek since then.

So this is my attempt to kill PMO once and for all and never go back. Im not looking to do a 90 day challenge, Im looking to do this for my entire life. I am hoping that with the community support, It will add another layer of accountibility, all that and a toilet! Im super excited!!!

 

Hey, that is some quality advice man. I love the "your brain on porn" video. That is one of my favorite resources. Ill check out those books and videos too! Thanks!