I feel like I need to do something new. Nofap has done a lot for me and I don't want to forsake the lifestyle that has gotten me so far. And I am absolutely done with porn for good. I have undergone a successful reboot. I don't objectify women and I really like someone who I am pursuing romantically and although I am feeling good about it it's kind of complicated. I just feel stuck. The entire reason I started nofap and all this self betterment was to find a relationship and be happy. And although it is possible for those two things to be independent of one another, I haven't found either. I'm stressed out and feel burdened by loneliness. I've never been with a girl before. I'm not sex starved, I just want someone to talk to and hold. I feel like I can't relate with people my age and am just kind of in the dark at this point. Am I supposed to just get back on the hc no pmo and keep hoping and trying to find love? It's been two years now and I have improved dramatically, it's just that the external variables have not helped me get to where I want to be. I need time I need patience I'm still young I know that. But I'm tired of this daily grind looking only to a future and being unable to enjoy the present moment. It's an internal struggle that I continuously lose and conquer. But what do I have to do to be content? Perhaps I want more than this world can give me. I'm just going to keep putting in the work. Get back on the horse and have faith in doing what's right. I'll try to make whatever I can happen but also hope that the chips out of my control fall in my favor. Enough rambling and self pity. It's time to just keep doing what I have always done. Hc no pmo, diet, exercise, education, becoming who I want to be. I'll find love. Patience. Discipline. One day at a time.