whether through fapping, or sex, it makes no difference to me...

A nut is a nut from my experience. I'm going to feel drained regardless, i'm going to be feel pressure behind the eyes, and lose life... it's all really frustrating. Sure, I can NoFap for a few months to recharge, and feel that energy again, physically, and mentally, which may inspire me to approach more girls, and maybe even enter a relationship, but I nut a few times, and i'm back to square one. It sucks because my heart wants to find a girl i'm attracted to, and have a lot of sex(not only sex of course, but i'm just saying), but my body knows it isn't possible if I want to even feel somewhat half decent physically. Do any other guys ever go through this? Ya know, you don't fap for a long time, and you feel like you want to get out there, and start hooking up with girls, but you don't because you know the orgasms will do nothing but drain you? I envy dudes who can have a regular sex life, and still have the energy to be happy, and have a zest for life. Sorry for the negativity... hooked up with a girl a few days ago after 54 days of NoFap, and a couple nuts later, i'm back to square one.