Welcome everyone. Just few questions that might help me in that hard journey. The reason that I decided to reboot is I want to cure my sexuality with my girlfriend. She's been amazing and I love her to bits, she totally satisfies my sexual needs, but thanks to my porn/masturbation addiction that started in the past, I failed to appreciate that fact. She's dedicated, understanding and beautiful and yet thanks to my stupid weakness I failed to answer sexual initiations, I couldn't ejaculate etc. Now she's gone away abroad for 5 weeks and I decided to reboot myself; usually in the past I dealt with those times apart by porn/masturbation, but this time I decided to fight! Already 3 weeks have gone and I'm really happy to say that I've not masturbated; first week was a nightmare, all the vivid memories memories from porn; then pretty girls on the street that I wanted to eat alive! But I survived that hell and now, as days go by, those urges have become smaller. However, every time I think about my girlfriend, when we talk on the phone or I see her photos, I become crazy with desire! I can't concentrate, I've got visions, etc. I mean, I feel that horny towards her that I used to feel towards porn or strange girls.. On one hand I'm happy about that, cause this is what I wanted to achieve. My reboot is planned only for 5 weeks, till she's back and I'm really hoping it's gonna stay that way cause she deserves to be The Only One. However I've got them doubts, is it because I don't have her at the moment i feel this way and then, after it becomes everyday life, I'll have that 'progressing needs', chaser effects, etc.? I'm already preparing mentally for that battle, although maybe I'm overthinking.. Another matter is, me fantasising about sex all the time, even if it is with my loved one, is it not stopping my rebooting? Thanks for listening, maybe some of you has had similar experience?
