Will try to get back on track

Hi,

Been more or less and active member in some periodes. I guess I was most active during 2017-2018/19. After that I'v been trying to get back to this forums because there is so much to learn, but have not had the motivation.

Well, I guess some of the reason behind me not coming back until now, is because I have grown a lot. I have a lot more energy, motivation, focus and selfconfidence. So I felt that I "did not need nofap". Well, I was wrong.

All this positive energy and confidence made me be able to bring home two girls not too long ago. Just one problem (which I did not know I had until then), I was not able to get an erection. I did not know it was a problem for me until those times.

After that I'v been thinking that I can just fap/watch porn, since I am currently in a situation where I can't date right now (related to other parts of my life, not because of the erction problem). I am just too busy with other parts of my life, and it does not fit to have a girlfriend in my life right now.

Last nigth I was about to use my fleshlight, but someone else was home, so I was afraid they would hear it... even tho it does not make a lot of sound. So I was about to try fapping. It felt really strange to me to get back to fapping, so I had to try get back to my fleshlight again. At that moment I realised that this was a good opportunity to stop. Will also try find a way to block p from my computers and phones (since I don't want to block it for others that I live with if they want to use it....)

I trew away my fleshlight, and hopefully it will help. Since it felt so weird going back to normal fapping. Hopefully it will help me improve even more! Because I love to grow and I love to improve myself. I think it is important that this should not only be because of an erection problem, but to make a greater version of yourself.

Looking forward to growing even more! Set my PMO tracker back to zero again for a fresh start.

And I will give a big thanks to this forum and people around here. You, the people in this forum have helped me trough the worst times of my life. 3 years ago, I could not even imagine smiling again and having confidence. This forum proved me wrong.

Best regards, good luck too all that are trying to get on track or are on streaks!