WTF is wrong with me?

YBOP, and many here, talk about the difference between "wanting it" and "liking it". The dopamine is the neurotransmitter of seeking and getting; it is stimulated plenty. The neurotransmitters of actual satisfaction: not so much.

I'm 62; When I switched from almost all images to all videos earlier this year, I went from once a week or less to nearly every day, occasionally twice per day.