Today is 10 days out of 14 days for this thread (only 4 more days left in this thread then moving on to the 21 day challenge!) Total: Day 17. Tomorrow: Day 18, approaching Day 20 milestone Urges: Minimal (not too bad, maybe almost non-existent) Erections: No morning wood and all day, no erections at all Libido: Slightly lower Possibility: Entering the Flatline period anytime soon? if so, that means I'm on the right track. Stay Strong, brothers!
shadows that are being fed, from human weakness in mind and act. Vital power is being lost. A thought that is always on the coast. A distant light with uncertainty in its way versus the near shadow with inevitability all along what shall it be. (sorry brothers and sisters, just an outburst)
Day 2, has been a super tough one, but I was able to push myself away from some heavy temptation, so thats something.
Day 7 completed In the afternoon I was alone at home. I had a little work on the computer. Of course the situation and being alone is a powerful trigger. I opened some sexy pictures, but I quickly closed the laptop lid. Uh, it was difficult.
Day 13 (Total 20) - 3rd time I am making it to 20+ Days in the years of dealing with addiction. The first time I did it was 2 years ago, and I ended that streak on Day 31. Second time I did it, it was 13 months ago, ended that streak at Day 45, and now I am again clear for 20+ Days. Those relapse were not worth it, but I was not strong enough. I am planning to stay here until I reach 100 Days, I am already at 20% of my goal. 100 Days because during that time my brain will rewire in healthy ways and it will be easier to move forward from there
Day 12/14 is done. Had a challenging night where I almost relapsed. All my old fantasies are coming back to me in full force, even in the day time. Yet I will look forward to tomorrow to being a better day, as I was suddenly reminded of the benefits of abstinence. I have great confidence and humour in the past days and I don't want this to stop. Go go go!
"Completed Day 11" - "Started Day 12" (total 56 days) Checking in for yesterday, another day out the window. Glad to have been able to abstain for 2 months. No urges yesterday, well, maybe a little, if I'm honest, but they were so minor, which is good, cause that always makes things a bit easier. I really think it's gonna take me a lot longer than 90 days to recover, and I know there will be many urges coming my way in the future, but I'll be ready for them.
Today is 11 days/14 days. Total: will be 18 days. Tomorrow 19 days. Soon to be out of this 14 day challenge!!! Now finally in flatline period. No erections meaning no relapse.