Day 1/7 of the challange (actually PMO-free day 4). I feel more energized and clear BUT for the first time, I really felt the urge to fap in the morning. Also, in my dreams, I was watching porn :S But the motivation to keep going is strong.
I am in the middle of my first day. I feel relieved, actually. I made my mind and joined this website after a horrible dream I´had the night before: I sit with my whole family in front of the TV, masturbating, trying to hide it, scarred to death they will notice. Ugh! Never more! Have your fingers crossed for me, please.
Day 5 of 7. I am still keeping strong, despite thoughts that I could just stop and enjoy myself. If my subconscious mind thinks that trick will work, then it needs to work harder to take me down.
sometimes I just think like that too... Day 3 for me. Its really hard not to fap in the mornings like right now and at night when Im home from work
Day 2 and my idea of "saving testosterone" instead of "not PMOing is working. PMO makes me feel like a beta; a little, whining bitch, half-a-man type shit. Fuck that. It's all Alpha from here on out. Still staying away from the booze as well because that shit just fucks with my mind and turns me into a fucking mental-midget. It's amazing what you can accomplish with a clean body and a clean mind. I've been polluted for years, trying to convince myself that none of it was wrong. The only thing wrong was ME. Those things aren't me. I never used to drink and barely jerked off until high speed Internet. Then, it was just an endless supply of shit I was into and dopamine, ad nauseam. It's over now and I'm happy to be moving on; happy to be reinventing myself. Strength to all my brothers and sisters dealing with addictions.
