112/365, 146 days of no PMO in total. There where many occasions last week where I realized that I think about sex a lot less than a few month ago. I used to think about sex immediately upon wake up and usually my first action of the day would be to jerk off. Now it happens more often than not that sometime after I am already out of bed I realize "Hey, I havn't thought about sex today until now!", which is a great feeling Honestly, my progress hasn't been the quickest and even around day 80-90 there where many occasions where I thought " Why am I doing this to my self, this is torture, I should just relapse, this struggle isnt going to get better" - because is was that hard. But I can honestly say that I have felt so free for weeks by now! And this freedom keeps growing and its priceless. And I am so exited to experience the state of freedom after a year+ of abstaining. Even if you have worked hard for a while and you dont see progress yet, I honestly believe that if you dont give up, you will see sustainable results before long. Patience and perseverence are key, the reward will come in time.
6/365 of no 'F'. Using the law of substitution to replace the bad thoughts with good ones. The night was without a dream. Really relieved.
Day 17 & 18 - At any given moment you have the power to say: " This is not how the story is going to end".
Day 84/365 When I was reading Old Testament in the train, I was spoken to by a foreigner, and he asked me "Thailand?" "Which type of Hebrew?" "Do you have class?". After I answered, he told me about himself, but unfortunately I was being stupefied, actually I don't remember anything about him... ugh. Maybe, he is from Setagaya, Tokyo, and do something in English there (I really don't remember anything lol). If it was a good news for me, I really repent that I've forgotten.