Day 5 out of 30 with no porn or masturbation and I'm starting to feel good. I don't feel like something other than myself is in control of things and my emotions are becoming normal again. I'm not getting irritated at people or my wife for minor things and I am happier than I have been lately. Maybe its a placebo effect since its so early but it still feels good. Gonna work up to thirty days and then keep adding on because I know I don't want to go back to watching porn.
today is again my first day, after relapse but feeling very craving for watch P and M but i dont want to do i want recovery please god take these feelings from me
What I do I am depressed. I lost my hope to recover now I am thinking to continue pmo but I don't want unmanage life I want freedom freedom from active pmo I surrender in front of my disease yesterday night I am not in guilt becoz what I did I want to do Now I don't have courage to even think quiting pmo i can not fight more with my sexually fellings But I want recover