Day 2, got back from night shift and into bed had to get out and do pushups to quell the urge. 12 pushups aiming to increase by 1 each day until 90 days
Feeling guilt of relapsing after straight 40+ days of hard-mode nopmo in this challenge... life is reset to day 0....
14/90...start to hang around with friends Improvement can be seen clearly.but confidence still down.(flatline)
Start of day 49/90 hard mode... I have my first appointment with a counselor today... Feeling anxious as I don't know what to expect... Ironically my anxiety is a pretty strong trigger for my urges which is making this even harder... Let's hope talking things through helps...
Yes, I had that to. Your mind tries to do everything to make you come back, to the drug that gave you all the validation and dopamine in life. For your mind it is extremely hard to accept that this source of dopamine just goes away. But trust me, even if the fear seems real, they're just excuses. Every reason for relapsing is just an excuse, you'll find out later. It's the hardest thing to go through NoFap and experience pain and withdrawal, but that's the only way you find a new purpose in life. Keep on going, but be set stronger boundaries to never let this happen again. You'll thank yourself later.
Day 49 (Season III) Am calm and positive again. Reading Eckhard Tolle and meditating helps. Staying present is a big key.
