55 days and still going. Edging is a challenge but these days I am so tired from work that I do not need it to put me to sleep. One thing I was hoping from NoFap was a reduction in hair loss. Has anybody ever experienced that? I was hoping to see that but so far, nothing. Of course, given that my job is pretty stressful, I suppose it comes out even. Whatever NoFap saves, stress destroys.
60 days. No porn, no masturbation, no edging, no sex. I have various combinations of these for longer but never all four at once. I am aiming for 90 days, trying to break those connections in my mind that link sex exclusively to porn or something made up rather than a real life partner. The best thing that I found that has helped me is investing all that time and energy into my job.
You can. Take it one day at a time. Keep yourself busy, make a list of the things you want to do and try to do them one a day.
Thanks, I find no need to masturbate or look at porn when I'm happy, however I struggle when I'm stressed, depressed, pissed
That's always the test and the withdrawal from porn makes us more susceptible to negative moods. We have been using porn to deal with all the frustrations in our lives rather than develop the necessary mental resilience to cope with it so porn withdrawal leaves us vulnerable. Look it as a test to develop your mental strength.
Hard day today. My hand kept drifting downwards and my eye kept drifting sideways to articles about sex or pictures of beautiful women. Still holding though but it is so damn hard.
72 days and I nearly pegged out yesterday. Again, the edging. It feels like the last barrier, this temptation to fantasize that stops me from connecting fully to normal sexual expression. I can beat porn, I can stop myself from M and O but edging is a hard beast to kill. Sometimes old porn clips but mostly scenarios I come up with in my head which unfortunately, I am very good at. Yesterday, I felt like I was holding sand, trying to hold on to my resolve only to see it trickle through my fingers before I grab it again. For me, it feels like if I can transcend edging and connect sexually to a real life woman without needing edging, I can win this battle. The war will go on but I will have established a strong point, a marker on the long road to show me how far I have come and the benefits thereof for the war ahead.
So I didn't M or O and I didn't go to P but I lost myself to edging. Lying in bed today after a very difficult and acrimonious day yesterday, I just felt like giving up, wondering what was the use of it all. I guess we all feel that at some point. Mine was triggered by a pretty vicious verbal fight that left me depressed. I was supposed to go swimming today but instead I just lay in bed, wondering why I should even bother getting out. I very nearly went to P but managed to choke that impulse. I want to try for 90 days at least for that. But I spent a good hour and more in bed, just fantasizing and wasting my time. Feeling pretty low.