Day 78. Grateful for opportunity to live another day porn and masturbation free. Today I will remember the truth about porn: full of violence, drugs, diseases, veneral diseases, tragedies, suicides. Shelley Lubben testimony - former porn star, showing how women are treated in porn industry and how their lives usually look like:
Guys, been feeling indifferent since my last streak. Been pmoing just to feel better. But I kinda don't bother. Its like half of me want to change and the other half wants to stay and binge. But I know how incredibly good it is to be on a streak. I guess I will go back to writing and write down how I feel now, so when I feel like relapsing later, I can go back and read how I dont want to live. I reset my counter. Today is day 0/90
Day 69/90. Better sleep. Woke up to meditate and stretch. Frustration is my resistance. I will stop resisting and flow with it. Frustration is "what is", therefore I am not a victim. It is neither good nor bad. It can happen to anybody, not just me. It becomes a learning experience for me.
Thanks for this brutally honest post. You could have been talking about me most of my life! I hope you get backup and restart, but it sounds like there’s something else in your life causing pain, and PMO is just your go-to anesthetic. Could that be true? If so how can that pain be addressed? Hope you hang in there brother. Supporting you.