Today I completed day 40 .... today I watched a video of goodlooking girl on youtube intentionally for about 10 minuits.. looking more video of her ... No nudity ,no sex scene, just a beautiful girl I watched and lusted over her Aroused but didnt fap ... But lusted... Is it relapse..??? Feel like I will explode WHAT TO DO ....... Will it Fuck my recovery
But what was the point? You clearly became aroused. Plus it was just a video-a recording from the past featuring someone you will never meet.
Only you can set the boundaries as to what counts as a relapse in your goals. Nobody else. Uhmm you get dopamine from pretty much every positive experience in life, its not a poison. Without it your in for a very depressing life
There was post on this site with a very important message. It essentially defined the terms "reset" and "relapse" by describing how masturbation/lust is normal and acceptable. It is only when PMO becomes excessive or out of control that it is considered problematic. So in terms of the counter, yes you'd "reset" if you did masturbate. But if your initial addiction had you in PMO trance for hours at a time while in this instance you masturbated for only 10 min before finishing, then it shouldn't be counted as a "relapse" because you aren't actually performing that excessive/problematic behavior. But do reset the counter if you did masturbate because even though its not a relapse, you don't want to justify it and get carried away. Use the counter for your goals, but at the same time, don't let one instance of normal masturbation discourage you in your fight for recovery since its still a sign of progress.
I’m day 75 ish, doing great and finally getting over this evil addiction.. yesterday however, I was looking for gym equipment online and a picture of a provocative girl came up working out. (This was one of my favorite genres).. so so sad.. before I could even comprehend what was happening, my dopamine autopilot had me clicking like a freaking maniac looking for her pictures and finding them successfully too.. It only lasted 30 seconds or so but the size of the rush and the amount of dopamine released was unbelievable.. i had in fact done a drug or two as a wayward teenager many moons ago and this was honestly a far bigger rush.. it absolutely rocked me. Now, 24 hours later.. I’m having the worst time.. like a freaking crack addict withdrawals. I even woke up in the night cold sweating. For me, even though I diddnt touch myself, I consider this a relapse but I don’t consider myself back at day 1 but yes, a considerable setback
Me too. I was reading this stupid newspaper. Which very commercial and full of trigger stuff. Suddenly there was a picture of a nude girl. I lookedat it and then moved away quickly but then there were so much Dopamine in my head. And now a Day later I feel awkward in my brain. Didn’ t m or o.