Thank you for your support and encouragement it means a lot to me. This has been an incredible journey and I am grateful for it
Great post, very good encouragement for us all to remember we are not alone and our strength is the soldier beside us
Day 2 So, here's the thing Pt2/2 I'm the typical guy who goes alone on his own way but who knows everyone. I don't share with many people, only with the most trusted. I usually prefer to be alone but when I want to be accompanied it's not a difficult thing for achieving. My problem has been rather about the emotions that I can feel early towards someone. So after having masturbated and felt that need and search for connection, I decided that I would lose my fear of relating more closely with others. I decided that I would talk again and get in touch with this girl I called "La chiqui". "Shorty" for you. So I texted her. She received my message and replied to it with some confusion and suspicion. It was to be understood. Last time I had the chance to continue talking with her. However, I had decided to go back and get lost in my own way. Then we almost broke our link. But fortunately, I came into her life again at a good time. Not too early, not too lately. After a few days of chatting halfway, of failed attempts to hang out and some effusive and sincere greetings, we were able to be together again, alone in the streets. We talked almost the whole night. She had to leave early. I insisted on her arrogantly to stayed with me as if I already knew everything that was going to happen. We kissed to such an extent that we could not stop feeling our lips stuck together. We savored every corner of our mouth. In a moment we finished kissing, we were sitting next to each other, looking horizon. From our side, we were separated by a bottle of rum and 15 cm more. I looked at the void in a fatal way trying not to reveal my feelings of joy and enthusiasm, I didn't want to show her signs of weakness in front of love. I didn't want to see myself hypnotized by what she made me feel, or what she did to me. She, on the other hand, came up unexpectedly and kissed my cheek repeatedly. She had her eyes closed while doing so. Then she kissed my neck a couple of times and quickly passed to my nose. With a gentle gesture, she made our noses massage each other and kissed me. She kissed my mouth in a delicious way. It was a delicious feeling. I exploded in happiness. She separated from me with a beautiful smile and I gave her another, I let it out with all its splendor. The night continued and the caresses the same. It was late and the cold was strong. I lent her my hoody. I paid for her taxi to its house and I left for mine. When I got home I thought about turning on the computer and watching some porn. After all that day I had nothing but strong erections and excessive visual and tactile stimulation. I wanted to touch my penis and feel something. I wanted someone to touch him too. I realized that what I wanted was for the girl to touch me, I wanted to share with her in a carnal way. I told myself PMO would be a waste of time and energy. I resolved to keep in touch with la chiqui, and find a way to get closer to her more sexually. From that moment have passed around two weeks. More things have happened...
I will overcome my weak self. Day 0 for me. Two weeks ago I was a SPARTAN GENERAL. You can count me in.
Hello Spartans, I have shared a post in success stories and I am copying it here because I owe my success to all of you. Thank you. You have saved my life.
DAY- 12 , Checking In "These sexual propensities, though they are at first like ripples, acquire the proportions of a sea on account of bad company" BY- Narada. Guys day 12 here , no urges at all , is it normal ? i haven't hit the flatline yet , am i really recovering or what ?
Check in day 10. I still did not had any nocturnal emissions, that makes me worry. Usually it happens at day 4 or 6. Any thoughts?
Relapsed! I yielded to the pornography again. I feel so bad to break off the check-in days. It is not easy for me to insist 4 days abstaining PMO. It is terrible.
Checking in day 34 Since I made my decision to delete online dating profile and stop arranging my life around chasing women I noticed a great deal of peace settling in my mind. What will be - will be.