Day 17 and relapse !!!! I relapsed with M out of coursework load. I'm feeling very sad and awkward at the same time. Day 0 for me
Relapsed again today, day before yesterday as well. But I am not giving in. F#ck this horrible addiction. It ain't gonna solve my problems but it gives me the energy to be more creative and have a way with words. I don't feel that bad but rather ashamed of what I have done. Like one of Pavlov's dogs, just programmed to give in to short pleasure. I hope to be more careful in the future and remove peeking forever.
33/60 Cold shower Workout Yoga Meditation (2x) Journaling Creative work On some days I didn't have enough time for the creative work and yesterday night I watched a show because I needed to chill out. There is a lot of emotional tension carved out by Nofap and no outlet at the moment. I will abstain from the internet as much as possible during the next week.
I have completed 30 days challenge on Monday. Yesterday I stayed almost clean. I had slight leakage due to fantization while commute in public transport. Day 1: I want to complete this 60 days challenge and continue this journey throughout my life.