Maybe it's your "porn brain" going on overdrive knowing very well that you are conquering porn for good. In any case, we don't fully understand the brain anyway and even why we dream is not understood. I also had a dream where I had an encounter with a demon-like creature and I have never forgotten that dream to this day. All other dreams I don't really remember but this one has always stuck in my mind. Whatever dreams represent maybe it is what is going on in our subconscious, I don't know. The good thing is you called out to God in all this. I believe in God cause when I critically look at nature it is impossible for me not to see a super-genius, a master designer at work behind all this.
Day 3 Today, I was sorely and painfully reminded how unpredictable life is. One day you are here the next you are gone. Life is like a mist. Live each day well, as if it was your last.
Day 25, I can't believe I'm this far into the journey. I also really enjoy posting here, to this challenge. Since it's not a monthly challenge I think it should just keep going until .. who knows really. Anyway today was absolutely great, I felt really powerful challenging myself Habit Check: French listening/speaking Journal Login Visualizing&Proactive
Day 10 I'm starting to come down from my rebooting 'high' the challenges are starting to present themselves in unique forms. *Crouched position*
Good to hear that’s encouraging, 4 more days and you’ll get your helmet. You will have to decide if you want to keep walking this path. We are excited for you! Don’t look at it as a bad thing, when you beat those challenges, it shows you’ve grown, your tested by fire. Just as metal is refined by fire.. so you will be refined.
Day 46! Halfway to a reboot, and in 4 days I will be halfway to finishing this challenge. I may add in some Ex ranks or alter some ranks to the challenge. Any advice or tips to improve it will be considered. Life is good!
this hit me right know,, been so depresed suddenly, i mean when reality hit u hard,,,and somehow you reminded failure thing's that happen right know, and see that your friend are succesfull in it,,,,, its sure depresing tho and ofc the demon see this chance, and whispering to at least release small portion of it by watching P*rn but then i realize P*rn didnt solved my problem at all, it worsen it and i think its normal to be down some time, i'm not a perfect human that have no emotion i will begin to gratefully accept that failure and this emotion tho even if its hard or maybe its only me being fake with myself haha i dont care, *see enemy approaching, scare him with blaster !!!
Go Hollyman! Don’t let negative feelings keep you from being the man you want to be Mandos! You haven’t lost all the benefits because of one relapse, keep up the good work. I look forward to seeing you win this challenge along side all of us. Its an endurance race, not a competition! Everyone who makes it to the end wins, no matter how long it takes.
thank you chief,, but im not relapse yet ,,, no no the demon whisper me to relapse, but im not doin it But i mean, You know life has its up and down,,,im just facing another enemy that i need to slay thats all
CHECK IN DAY 8, Fighting the "Ashura" for better control of my emotions. Its a tough battle but i will not loose. I must GO BEYOND! PLUS ULTRA!!
Someone die? What reminded you? You are right though. It important to realize what’s truly valuable in life.
Depressive moods have no warning signs. They just hit you like a sledgehammer. But I am glad that you didn't give in and are still fighting. Well, for me, it was just the recent death of a friend and then the death of the basketball icon Kobe that made me lament about how fickle life can be sometimes. I often ask the question of what is the meaning of life anyway..hehe. But then yesterday I went on youtube and watched positive videos of people doing good things and I felt better. As for the urges to watch porn, I have to say they are non-existent at the moment. It's like they have magically disappeared. When I get in a pensive mood about life, my urges are nowhere to be 'seen', 'heard' or felt.
Damn flatline where are you? I'm so damn horny like a teenager that I just grabbed my dick almost unconsciously. Porn wasn't involved and I stopped immediately but that was really close. And again: Chilling out in front of a screen leads me to this. Plus eating too much plus plus plus ... I really need to get my ass away from the pc. That's my wisdom for today and now I'm going to distract myself with some housework.
