44 days completed just 1 more day for 45 days it's a big milestone for me earlier i almost lost battle in 20-30 days but one thing that i change which i was not doing earlier is self reflection every day i go to roof walk on roof and i talk to myself everyday for 1 hrs minimum i discuss my problems discuss the solutions with myself and what can i do to tackle the problems. when i start streak i was struggling in 10-20 days of my streak with urges i just install digital detox and i just lock my phone and at night i just go on roof and just discuss the situation with me as i start talking with myself with time i feel like i am gaining consciousness and i feel like i am getting aware of my thoughts feelings emotions i know some people would say what is this are you mad ? etc etc but i don't care at all what people say about me it just help me to get through this 44 days i just start learning to motivate myself everyday self motivation is coming which was not happening earlier just finding motivation but as i start talking everyday i just try to motivate myself that i can do it now it is start coming naturally to me to motivate myself if urges are still coming also i don't want to say that i have won the fight or urges didn't affect me anymore it still affects me still now but i just start gaining the confidence that i can fight that i don't know if it works for you or not but it works for me hope it helps someone
I've tried P blockers in the past.. so many sites slipped through that in stead of preventing me from relapsing, I just spent even more time than normal finding "just the right content" to feed my reptile brain.
Day 0/90 Total clean days - 22 Total PMO - 9 Total P - 2 Total hours remaining - 2160 So last night I watched porn knowing that I have to lose my streak. So I relapsed didn't do a PMO but that counts as a relapse so I learnt my lesson for now.
Checking in on day 75/90 Yesterday I caught myself looking up profile pictures of ex-GF's in a messaging app.. a minor slip, with no intention of escalating. But it's crazy to see how strong the brain's urge is to consume something stimulating! I've been having sexual fantasies about a hot waitress who works at a restaurant that I visit regularly. I know that it's not a good idea to indulge these thoughts but I am happy that they occur. When I started this challenge, only P images kept popping up in my head. Now those images are mostly gone and replaced by thoughts about real women!
For how long did you watch? If it was only a few seconds or perhaps a minute and you didn't touch yourself, it might be a slip rather than a relapse.
Bro I think I relapsed because I watched for 20 mins or so. I need to understand that there were will be consequences for watching it. So even it is for 1 min I will consider it a relapse. It's hard mode for me but thanks for your suggestion.
Day 27/30 No PM (June) Day 520 at attempting this challenge Day 183 weigh training (M, W, F) Day 2 Jogging (Tues &Thurs) Day 54 No caffeine and no alcohol Lifestyle: reduced desserts
I've completed 06/90 but I was on vacation and I had sex two time, now I'm wondering if I should reset my challenge and start it again?