day one well tbh im not relapsing, but maybe the first seven day is not as clean as it must..so start from day 1,
Day 8. I guess that makes me a Spirited Potential How's it going with urges, life etc this far into your streak @Anakin66 ? I don't understand your first post, @hollyman . What are you saying? Yahoo! Go @Gonarth :-D
It's been going well, but I've had my fair amount of challenges. I don't get urges at random and have become very very aware of media with sexually explicit content. I steer clear of those and remind myself of why I am on a better path. Also, I have been very productive with work and very focused. That positively feeds back into my mental state and hyper awareness. The reality is that I have learned that sex is not and should not be the primary focus of my life!
its likely i have this momentum again to re start the journey,, ofc the urge is there but thank god until this moment right know can handle it
Good morning check-in after a risky trigger situation with my wife. Lesson learned. Day 10 begins now. Double digits!
Day 22 I'm not feeling upbeat like the previous days. Today feels like a drag. Reintroducing challenges to help me with goal setting, mindfulness, productivity and dopamine detox. Cold Shower: Day 1 of 10 Avoid using the internet from 7 PM: Day 0 of 10 Reading the book Hard Goals in 4 days: Day 1 of 4 and currently on page 13 Mindfulness Meditation: Day 0 of 10 YouTube Detox: Day 0 of 10 Wake up at 6 AM or earlier: Day 0 of 10 Journalling: Day 0 of 10 JavaScript Coding 4 hours a day: Day 0 of 10
Day 23 Feeling really good about today. Cold Shower: Day 3 of 10 Avoid using the internet from 7 PM: Day 0 of 10 Reading the book Hard Goals in 4 days: Day 2 of 4 and currently on page 26 Mindfulness Meditation: Day 0 of 10 YouTube Detox: Day 0 of 10 Wake up at 6 AM or earlier: Day 0 of 10 Journalling: Day 1 of 10 JavaScript Coding 4 hours a day: Day 0 of 10
Day 19. I haven't been on here for about 11 days. I also haven't spent much time on the internet, so that's been good. My mood's been shocking, so low, and lots of anxiety. Really feeling a disconnection from people, especially the girl interest. "The void" is real. (I hope that link still works - I've blocked reddit but I'd bookmarked the post a year or so ago). Of course there are other factors to my depression - disconnection, this not-relationship, and having gone far too-long without work worse, and "the void" left from ditching porn is just another thing. Am camping this weekend with some blokes from church, I'm looking forward to it. Oh, and day 19 - I'm a Foundling now *Humbly requests basic armour from @Wolfyoufeed* This is great! Thanks for sharing. Yeah I'm also noticing more and more when media is sexually explicit, and have to "check myself" - thoughts and actions.
Day 25 Cold Shower: Day 5 of 10 Avoid using the internet from 7 PM: Day 0 of 10 Reading the book Hard Goals in 4 days: Day 4 of 4 and currently on page 26 Mindfulness Meditation: Day 1 of 10 YouTube Detox: Day 0 of 10 Wake up at 6 AM or earlier: Day 1 of 10 Journalling: Day 3 of 10 JavaScript Coding 4 hours a day: Day 0 of 10
Good to see you back here after a while. I have to say I relate in many ways to your current mental state. While I have had moments that I have been really elated, most of the time the past 7 days have been really a struggle with low motivation, anxiety and some depressive thoughts. I guess as you say it is "the void". I hope to come out of this funk soon.